My "one little word" for the year is COMPLETE, as in all those half-finished craft and home projects. At the beginning of 2015, I also increased my hours at work to nearly full-time, the most I've worked since 2009.
Time suddenly became a lot more precious. I thought a lot about my "life purpose" - perhaps that's a philosophical effect of an impending 40th birthday. I even drafted one of those ridiculous "mission statements", so that I'd have a concrete, succinct way to capture exactly what I'm trying to do.
Here it is:
To create and enjoy living in a home environment that enables our family to be happy, healthy, creative, loving, and successful.
Figuring this out wasn't too hard - I always knew it would be family and home focused. I don't have big ambitious career goals; rather, I want to continue to do interesting work and contribute to our family finances significantly. That's been on track since I returned to work last year.
Getting my purpose into words has also helped me weed out what's NOT serving me. I have always struggled with Internet Time Wasting. I've taken a few breaks from Facebook and I'm still trying to figure out how I can maintain the connections I've made with faraway friends, balancing that with using my precious free time to complete real life projects that bring me more satisfaction than reading yet another "helpful" article on time management.
Blogging stayed on the fence for a while. Getting all deep and introspective made me realize there is definitely an egotistical component to this. I wanted to build a "following", both to support The Papercraft Lab as a business, but also just for the "gold stars" that come with comments and readers.
I don't like that part of me that needs to seek status externally. Some of it comes from being an introvert - I really need my quiet "alone" time, so some of my social needs are met by sharing things on a blog or other social media. Introverts get lonely too :)
But it's not the way I want to live. I love my life, to be sure, but am starting to feel like social media is just too noisy for me. I want meaningful connections - I don't just want to shout into the void and add more content for the sake of it.
I'm still figuring it out. Social media, especially Instagram and Facebook, are ever-present and easy to post to when I have a few minutes to retreat into my phone or need a little bit of social interaction, but not so much as calling someone up and going out somewhere.
I have been blogging for 10 years with varying frequency. I don't have much I *need* to say these days. I'd rather be *making* scrapbooks than spending tons of time photographing and writing about them.
So I quit. From time to time, I may share a special project here, but I am officially closing out the idea of the blog so that this particular "open loop" in my mind goes away.
Things I'll be working on: how to build more *meaningful* connections into my life without sacrificing much-needed alone time, finishing all those damn projects (like that dresser I was supposed to paint A YEAR AGO), and really focusing on how I want to spend my time.
So thanks to everyone who ever read any of my blog posts. It's been fun!